I've lost connection. Batteries went dead.

This world is just so abnormal to me now. Emotions no longer make since to me anymore. I don't know if it's because I no longer feel them or I just can't compute them. There is a large part of me that just needs to let go, of everything. I need to let go of the fear, the hate, the irritation. It sickens me because I know I'm buried underneath all these walls left over from the past. These hideous infrastructures that cradle my thoughts till their sucked of all being. I need to put my big girl panties on and show them(him) who I truly am, rather then this latent girl whispering her thoughts so no one can hear them. I'm not her, I'm not. I never was. I feel as if I've played this role for so long and it has gotten me no where. I've lost people I truly love due to the fear. It's disgusting, It's so fucking disgusting. I wish the repairations were instant, like coffee.

He needs my help.

If only it weren't for the fear.